I’m not sure if I should cry right now or not, because honestly I feel good and bad at the same time
Whole story: Last friday (11.14) he texted me and we stated talking, I brought up why we weren’t together and he just said he wasn’t ready. I told him I understood but at the same time I couldn’t be his friend anymore because it hurt too much. I don’t know why, but aparantly he couldn’t get this into his head and felt the need to send me texts like
“*kisses on cheek*”
“aww you’re so cute :3”
“sexyyy”stuff like that and I don’t know why he did this, I asked him if he was doing it on purpose, knowing it hurt me, he said “maybe”
I told him I hated him, told him to never speak to me again
He didn’t text me again till sunday but we didn’t get to talk because my phone was being seriously retarded (Andrew knows).
On monday we ended up getting into this huge argument about why we weren’t together and it ended with
Me: Don’t ever talk to me ever again
Him: KDid he text me after? No. Did I text him? Nope.
however this felt like half of me was ripped away and that where was a huge hole in my stomach and I was falling apart, I couldn’t do anything for the rest of the weekToday he texted me, he blamed me for everything, he claimed hes ready now and that now he is heart broken and its all my fault. I’m being hypocritical, i’m being stupid and ignorant. This boy broke by heart into a million peices and kept coming back thinking it was okay and I kept letting him, today was the end of it, hes a moron, a bastard and a jerk and I don’t know why I ever fell in love with him.
right now? I just need a hug and somebody to tell me that I was right.
you were right.
really.
